| iStomach |
[Feb. 22nd, 2009|03:43 am] |
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| | details in the fabric : jason mraz | ] |
heavy gloww: I actually, sometimes, really, hate tripping.
bloomfilter: why?
heavy gloww: well, there's the whole.
heavy gloww: freeing your mind thing
heavy gloww: but, then what do you do?
heavy gloww: lol
bloomfilter: lol
heavy gloww: I mean, when freeing your mind is no longer exciting, and the only exciting thing at this point is
heavy gloww: cutting open your stomach to feel your intestines?
heavy gloww:: I just didn't really feel like magnifying how not excited I am about, everything.
But that in turn is what I am doing.
Except I'm not cutting out my stomach.
Although I really, really, want to.
It's kind of like the person that cuts to know they can still feel pain?
I want the excitement.
In fact, we could all maybe agree I live for it.
I'm done freeing, I want what's next, and I'm terrified that's it, what will I use for my next thrill?
Until I figure out,
I keep having to tell myself how much I don't want to cut out my stomach.
( dear sober me, you sort of regret this. )
If it's a broken part, replace it
If it’s a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it
are the details in the fabric, are the things that make you panic, are your thoughts results of static cling? are the things that make you blow, hell, no reason, go on and scream. if you're shocked, it's just the fault of faulty manufacturing.
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