| iBioterrorist |
[Feb. 1st, 2009|04:24 am] |
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No. I for real fall in love with everyone.
It's probably some sort of disorder.
I meant to get some cleaning done, but it's 4:14 and I've just texted and watched Burn After Reading with my brother. I never have anything productive to show for my late nights. But I always have such a great night planned out, all full of productive things.
Did you know it's going to be $100 to get my passport renewed? And I have to do it in person? It would only be $75 and I could do it in the mail if it was issued to me after I was 16. I'm nearly 20 now and don't see the fuck why it matters. I also don't work in the post office or passport making office, I don't really know what that place is called.
This morning, I thought I survived a bioterrorist attack. No, really.
I woke up on my couch, super late, and my eyesight wasn't that great. I could only find one of my cats, and no one was really home.
I called my brother, called my sister, texted my mom.
No response.
I called at least, at least twelve of my friends.
No response.
At this point I was a little upset thinking I was in the 1% margin of people who live. Unaffected. That's me.
Then Michael called back.
He told me I wasn't alone.
I had never appreciated those words more than I did that moment.
I can't get this personal statement down, tried tonight, it was on my list of productivity. Didn't get fucking anywhere with that. It's probably the most frustrating thing, especially since I'm applying for a course in cultural studies and creative writing? Speaking of which, I don't know how to tell my mom about it. I told my dad, I even told my dad I wasn't coming home for Christmas. He's so okay with it it's unreal. My mom will not be, she'll flip her shit, I know it. I just know it.
It's 4:30 AM. I thought about pulling an all nighter and going to church.
Fuck that. I am sleeping until 12. |
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i read over the aim messages you left, and then read this.
i'm not dead, i actually don't think very many people have died in the past 24 hours - just to reassure you. if i did die though, i think i'd leave up an away message so people had the opportunity to say whatever they needed to say.
That would freak me out too. I've woken up on days where my parents have left to go shopping or something, but there's always car noise outside to let me know the world's still moving. :) | |
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